Yesterday, I realised that everything I do or say is about me and me alone. I don't know when I became like this, I just did. At first I would do too much for others, till a point that a lot of times it screwed me over. So then, I decided to not do so much for others and concentrate on myself.
I decided that not everyone is worth the amount of time and energy you spend on them.
Then somewhere down the line I felt as if no one was worth the time and energy that I would need to put in them.
It is just that in the past one and a half year I have met my fair share of people (guys, really) that I really wish did not even exist. They were plain fucked up. Characters you watch in B-grade hindi movies and then wonder if such people even exist, and even if they do exist, then why the fuck are they still alive. It is as if the value of people, as a race, just went down in my eyes, albeit unconsciously.
So then, I just stopped letting people in. Even the ones that I had previously let into my heart were locked out.
I think, it is time that I have a look around me and actually see what is going on with everyone that I love because there is a lot that is going on.
Anyways, today I met Dinaz, Kunal and Ankita, and they were shooting this one scene for their new Youtube video.
Firstly, it was so much fun!!
Secondly, I wonder if I should have just stuck to BMM rather than going to Austria to study Textiles.
There was this moment when I was sitting on her bed and I could actually visualise how my life would have been if I had stayed back here: chilling with good friends, having fun, making videos or projects for college. Honestly, that life did not look that bad. It looked pretty damn good.
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